I’m experiencing a lot of grief right now. It’s been almost a decade since my father died and there’s still moments where I grieve him simply not being here anymore. I hate the idea that I have to take care of those around me simply because he is not here to do so himself. I think most importantly I grieve my old self, the happy little girl who did not know such pain nor such loss. I’m not sure she’s ever going to come back but I hope she’s okay. I hope that I am okay. What is okay?